Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Turning a corner

So life throws us once in awhile, but I think in the end, it's the way we deal with those little, or big, hurdles. It's taken me a long time, too many years in fact, to get back to this point. One heck of a journey, however, I've learned a lot about life, poultry, and above all else, myself.

The purchase of one little shirt has made all the difference, bizarre, yes I know. This little shirt (or large if you're going by the number that's on the tag - but in the end that's of no consequence) has given me the opportunity to see myself once again. I felt rather 'exposed' and not quite myself at first, but the reaction was life-changing. Wearing this shirt brought me back. I was actually wearing something that I would choose to wear, instead of something that covers me from head to toe. Too many years trying to be invisible I suppose. I'm not sure where I go from here, but a shopping trip on payday is a very strong possibility. I think I like having me back, I'll just have to keep reminding myself I'm no longer in my 20's, I need to have a bit more restraint! ;) How much restraint? That remains to be seen!

3 comments:

Karin said...

I'd say as little restraint as possible!

I've done the same thing myself, for too long - covering myself up. What it's all about is far more than hiding the physical figure, we're actually hiding our persons as well.

I now have a wardrobe filled with things in various tent-styles, rarely used, but I'll keep them anyhow. There'll always be days when I want to hide a little, but not everyday. These clothes also remind me of where I don't wanna go again.

Erica said...

I think I'll keep my hiding clothes for awhile as well. The difference in the way people react to me is so... at this point still overwhelming! I probably give off a whole different vibe, but it will take some time to adjust. I'm happy to be back, I just can't believe how much I had changed! The baggy, not me clothes, will slowly find their way to the garbage bin as I buy more suitable clothing!

Karin said...

If you feel what I did, I can only congratulate you. True liberation!